MATRIX...!!!

She knows not what to do about it but she has a vague idea about what she feels about it. It's a confusing matter but at times when she dives in too deep into the mind mesh, for an instant she gets the feeling as if she has caught a hold of the unwinding point of the tangled thread, but she losses it again in the passing of a moment. At times, in the silent hours of the night, she wonders if she will ever be able to untangle the delicate silken threads of thoughts, the thoughts concerning that particular matter. The tangled mesh is coloured by all the emotions she could possibly feel, the colours of feelings make it more confusing yet it has a symmetry- a fine complexly arranged matrix- but she is not wise enough to figure out the order or symmetry of the matrix! It leaves her baffled and shaken sometimes. She feels like a fool unable to handle all these pure raw emotions and thoughts of a highly spiritual nature. But there are moments when she feels as if she is an expert authority on the matter, as if she knows all about its spirituality and delicacy! She likes toying with her mind and twisting the thoughts into unrecognizable tangles and yet she also tries to sort them out, as if she ever could....!

 

Screaming Silence!

Drip drop of water from somewhere deep in the house,
tick tock of time from the clock overhead,
honking horns of cars from the road outside,
faint sounds of a pen scratching over a paper and the subtle sounds of deep breathing.
But still the silence was profound, beating on the eardrums- not allowing them to capture any sound other then the loud and harsh cries of silence! Yes, the silence was full of voices, all of them telling their own stories but making no sense in their haste to be heard over the babble of silent voices! I tried hard to understand and decipher the meaning of individual voices but the cacophony of silent cries beat against my ears and rendered then useless, the eardrums stopped straining to hear and the voices of silence died leaving behind the tick tock of time and the drip drop of water!