When I retreat into the dark recesses of my mind,
I find myself in a complexly woven web of thoughts and emotions, both conscious
and unconscious. Though it is dark in there but I can still see streaks of
brilliant white threads interwoven into the delicate web. The oppressing
darkness tries to hide the light in its veil but the brilliance still shines
through infusing me with the determination to keep on following to the core- as
if I were on a scavenger hunt- in hopes that I might find my true self
somewhere in the middle of the tangled
white threads. But at a certain point in the hunt I realize that I am
not all goodness personified, so perhaps I have a better chance of finding
myself in the dark shadowy parts of the web. But then again I am not completely
lost to the darkness, therefore I keep carving my path to the core where the
light and the darkness merge and none can be separated from the other because
that is what the essence of my character is, a smooth blend of right and wrong,
good and bad. I have my flaws and yet I am not completely faulted! I still
retain my good qualities and the bad ones help me maintain the balance. The
natural balance which is the most fundamental thing in keeping the universe in
order. And this is the order that I find at the core of my dark mind web. It is
the order from which all the chaos emerges. The chaos that we call life…!!!
