Yo0ho0oo!....(my version of cheers)

Okay....so here is one of the flattering moments; The Liebster Award. I've been nominated for this award by A Dreamy Gal and for that a very big thanks to her! :)

Now the rules:
*Thank the person awarding you! (is this really a rule o_O)
*Write 11 facts about yourself. (I am officially disliking this rule!)
*Nominate more people for the blog.
*Post 11 questions for them to answer.

Talking about myself is one of the things I hate passionately but as I've got no choice so here goes the bragging about myself:* I am human! (don't laugh...a whole lot of people around me seriously doubt this so I thought I'd better make the fact official)
*I'm the most boring being present on the planet as per stated by my friends! :P
*I have a passion for chocolates!
*I am a book worm...quite literally!
*I am generally a quite person but once I start talking I can babble non-stop....in short I get a verbal diarrhea! :P
*I like helping people even if they are some stupid jerk I'll still help them if asked!
*I value friendship a lot and my friends are the world to me! :)
*I am a potterhead!

*I love stuff toys.....yes the typical girlish childish thing! :P

*I've got a volcanic anger;it comes fast bursts out and then settles down!

*I like talking to myself! :P

Yes I know these are the most stupid facts ever written but this is what I am like!Now the answers to your questions dreamygal:


What makes you write?

The need to clean my head... you see it gets pretty cramped if we keep all the thoughts inside! :P

The best feeling is knowing that you actually mean something for someone - Who is that person in your life? (A tough question I know!)

My mama and papa....but thats the obvious natural thing so the other person is my best friend.

Meaning of your name? (In case you blog under a pen name, why that name?)
Arabic meaning of Aqsa is 'Holy Light' but there's also a masjid in Palestine named 'Al-Aqsa' and the Palestinian meaning for it  'the farthest'.

One thing you want to change in life? (It can be people, situation, feeling or even me! :P)

We people want to change a lot of things all the time but now seriously thinking about it, the only thing i'd like to change is the imaginary magic world of Hogwarts to reality! :P

'Life gives you a million reasons to die, but one is enough to keep you alive' - What is your that 'one' reason? (If you have many, pen down all)

The need in me to do something...to be the person I'd like myself to be before death claims me!

A bloggy/bloggies you would like to thank/appreciate/comments that made difference in your life? (I mean in blogging life. Don't include me, if am I am the one. That's height of bragging I know! :P)I want to thank all those people who commented on my posts and appreciated me to carry on with blogging and most of all I want to thank my friend Momina for inspiring me into blogging.

Namely I wanna thank Ph_, Purple Assassin, Adreamygal, Green speck and enigmatic soul.

One fear you live with?

The fear of having no nose like Lord Voldemort! :P

                         yes I am a big J.K.Rowling (harry potter) fan! :)

A dream which you didn't hope will come true, but did
I don' dream big so can't remember a significant dream!

Do you prefer to be straightforward, or shy away, or keep mum when it comes to saying some things? (You got the question I hope)
Depends on the person I am saying things to!....I am a straight forward person but also very shy in front a strangers and I mostly keep my thoughts to myself......I honor very few people with my precious thoughts! :P (you got the answer I hope)

Can you share your best blog post? (That which is closest to your heart, and not as per 'popularity')
I have yet to post it!....it's still in my diary waiting to be honored! :)

No more questions :D I spare you this little trouble in exchange of a smile :P
Okay!......so here's the smile.... cheeeeeeeese  :)))


Now the awards:
The problem here is that the people I wanna award have already been awarded! Still here are the names;
*Momina
*Ph_
*Raaji
*Purple Assasin
*Enigmatic Soul
*Green Speck
*Daniyal
And this is the questionnaire I've got for them:

*Are you an introverted or an extroverted person?
*One thing in life that means the most to you?
*you are woken from deep sleep at 3 in the morning! what will be the first words out of your mouth?
*Who do you trust and listen to more? Brain or Heart?
*Your passion?
*Your zodiac sign? Do you posses the traits defining your zodiac?
*It is said: 'Don,t ask what the meaning of life is, you define it!', So what's your defination of life?
*One word that defines you?
*There is someone saying bad things about you!...Will you prefer confronting that someone or silently walking away?
*Are you a realistic person or do fairy tales mean more to you?


Those are all the questions I could think of and now I'll be waiting for your answers...


    

Abandoned...!!!

         Sitting and Staring at the page not knowing how or where to start! Why is it so hard to express ourselves? Why do we want to hide? From years I've been writing down my thoughts, my feelings, been putting them down in words to calm the troubled mind. Why is it that we can open ourselves to lifeless plane sheets of paper but not to living breathing humans? Why are we afraid of our own kins, our own species more than we ever fear any other thing or being? We all find an indulgence or you can say an escape from our troubles or should I say from life! My escape is writing... I have two of my recently written pieces placed in front of me. I had thought of posting them but I don't think I have the courage to do so! I am afraid words might betray me, they might show the hurt, pain and feelings I've buried deep inside me because I don't want to let anyone find out my weaknesses, they make us vulnerable, people can hurt us. And we humans fear betrayal, we instinctively shy away from anything that can hurt us and our fellow humans are the beings who can hurt us the most.... I guess this is the reason; why we hide, why we fear closeness, why we don't trust...
            A look at the title reminded me of what i had originally intended to write before i started putting down my random errant thoughts!
          I wanted to talk about words. The way they have betrayed me! I had thought of them as my constant companions, always there to help when I felt dejected, hurt, troubled etc etc. Playing with words always helped bring me back to the norm of life!. I have often heard of how things and people abandon us when we need them the most, i had never thought of words as one of those things. But a couple of days ago i noticed it at the time when i was the most distressed and wanted to write and write and write until I relieved myself of all the burden but I couldn't write a single word! nothing came to my mind, it went blank just like the page of my diary opened in front of me at the time.... all my words, all my thoughts left me alone...numb! And when i made the journey back into my mind I discovered that it has always been like this.... I had never consciously realized that words, who i thought to be my constant companions have been betraying me all this time, have been leaving me alone whenever i needed them the most and the realization shocked me!...though it  shouldn't have. I should have kept in mind that it's the temporal nature of all things...they abandon us....they leave us alone. Nothing stays with us forever except the Lord and Creator of all. Only He stays in the hearts of his Creations to help them survive! 
         This is the final truth that i have found every time! no matter where i start or what i think or what i write it always comes to this abandonment, this loneliness where no one but our God stays with us and this is the realization that calms the sea of my thoughts when nothing else works!!