MATRIX...!!!

She knows not what to do about it but she has a vague idea about what she feels about it. It's a confusing matter but at times when she dives in too deep into the mind mesh, for an instant she gets the feeling as if she has caught a hold of the unwinding point of the tangled thread, but she losses it again in the passing of a moment. At times, in the silent hours of the night, she wonders if she will ever be able to untangle the delicate silken threads of thoughts, the thoughts concerning that particular matter. The tangled mesh is coloured by all the emotions she could possibly feel, the colours of feelings make it more confusing yet it has a symmetry- a fine complexly arranged matrix- but she is not wise enough to figure out the order or symmetry of the matrix! It leaves her baffled and shaken sometimes. She feels like a fool unable to handle all these pure raw emotions and thoughts of a highly spiritual nature. But there are moments when she feels as if she is an expert authority on the matter, as if she knows all about its spirituality and delicacy! She likes toying with her mind and twisting the thoughts into unrecognizable tangles and yet she also tries to sort them out, as if she ever could....!