A look at the title reminded me of what i had originally intended to write before i started putting down my random errant thoughts!
I wanted to talk about words. The way they have betrayed me! I had thought of them as my constant companions, always there to help when I felt dejected, hurt, troubled etc etc. Playing with words always helped bring me back to the norm of life!. I have often heard of how things and people abandon us when we need them the most, i had never thought of words as one of those things. But a couple of days ago i noticed it at the time when i was the most distressed and wanted to write and write and write until I relieved myself of all the burden but I couldn't write a single word! nothing came to my mind, it went blank just like the page of my diary opened in front of me at the time.... all my words, all my thoughts left me alone...numb! And when i made the journey back into my mind I discovered that it has always been like this.... I had never consciously realized that words, who i thought to be my constant companions have been betraying me all this time, have been leaving me alone whenever i needed them the most and the realization shocked me!...though it shouldn't have. I should have kept in mind that it's the temporal nature of all things...they abandon us....they leave us alone. Nothing stays with us forever except the Lord and Creator of all. Only He stays in the hearts of his Creations to help them survive!
This is the final truth that i have found every time! no matter where i start or what i think or what i write it always comes to this abandonment, this loneliness where no one but our God stays with us and this is the realization that calms the sea of my thoughts when nothing else works!!
We can be in a company of several persons yet be alone or we can stand alone under the sun and not feel lonely at all. It is more to do with our attitude rather than the presence or absence of something. Anything that calms you is fine.
ReplyDeleteI don't know everything about life but what I do know is that I have a life and I will have to live it somehow, anyhow.
Loneliness is another one of the feelings that we as humans can have. However, it's not the only one. There will be a time when you'll feel elated and that you belong somewhere, that you are loved and cared for. If such a time hasn't come yet, then it will (at least we can hope for that).
Words don't betray, it is us who do. Until we have faith, it stays faithful. The day we have doubts, it is done for. Words are simply means of expression. If, for some reason, you can't use them then find some other means to do so.
Whenever I feel down, aghast, alone, I ask myself if this is how I feel all the time. As soon as I recall what happened and what is happening around me, with other persons as well, the thought soon escapes.
I can hear your words, I am trying to feel them. Certainly, they are there to depict you in front of me. This is a plus point of blogging. You can pour your heart out but no one will complain. This is your place. Don't worry about expressing yourself here.
Take care! :)
ThankYou sui! this is very kind of you, you have a very simple view of life and i think it is right. I know its our own fault that we make our lives complex but i guess it takes some time and experience to be wise and I am trying to change my perspective of life!
Deletecoming back to the standpoint where God is my final answer to every question happens to me all the time too.
ReplyDeleteOther than that, I figured out, that being unhappy was at rather a choice, as unacceptable as it might seem, it actually is the truth.
Take Care. :)
I know its the truth but its also true that its a hard choice! At times you don't have the strength to work on being happy...you just want to go with the emotions you are actually feeling and I wrote it in one of those moments!
DeleteIn fact i had to go through it myself to see what i had written before answering the comments! :)
Thankyou for your wise words! :)
There are moments when words fail us, because the hurt we feel is sometimes just to intense to describe. For there are moments we can not grasp, no captivate in simple words.
ReplyDeleteAnd it's human nature to trust anything other than humans! We rely on machines and paper and canvases to speak for us, because we fear either our voice drowning out there or it being heard; because words have a hundred meanings, and for everyone their own perspective.
God, of course is with us always and always. Since, we all travel alone, these bonds we form are not totally dependable like the one we are born with; the bond with God.
You are right, some feelings are indescribable and when we are able to describe, we are either afraid of our words being noticed or else being ignored! May be that's how its supposed to be.
DeleteThank You Momina for sharing your perspective! :)
Walt Whitman Wrote In His Poem "Song Of Myself": “I do not ask the wounded person how he feels, I myself become the wounded person”
ReplyDeleteIt Came Into My Mind While I Was Reading About: The Betrayal Of Words, Trust, Describing Feelings. And Also Momina's Comment.
I Don't See How We Humans Can't Trust Each Other, You Can't Trust Everyone But You Can Have At Least Someone To Trust, You Might Not Have That Person Now, But You Might It Tomorrow. Time Keeps Moving, It's Not Far Away.
Yes we can trust humans but we can not ever trust a human completely!....we can not ever absolutely trust anyone with everything. That's how it is and if you can't see this now you will at some point in life!
DeleteThankyou for stopping by and for your wise words!